sunnuntai 10. heinäkuuta 2022

Spells

Foreword: It seems I'm writing again! Well, I have written again. It's short, and probably accidentally a copy of someone else's creepypasta. But here it is. No real editing, it is a creepypasta after all. Nobody knows when I will write the next one.

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She was going on about something again, and I was barely listening, being distracted.
- It's just like... the world has these bugs, right? Just like in video games. And if you know how they work, you can exploit them. People have been doing it for millions of years, I'd imagine.
- We're not that old a species.
- Well from dawn of time, then. Many bugs aren't even that difficult to find. Say, you lost something, like your keys, and you keep looking for them everywhere, and they are nowhere to be found. Until you tell someone you can't find them. It takes less than a minute at that point. That's a bug - a spell. It ties the lost object more tightly to your person, and brings your strings together, or something.
- What strings? And isn't that really just your brain being better able to focus on the thing?
- Ever tried just focusing real hard on your keys when looking for them?
- Uhg, I guess.
- So spells exist. And they can be used for one's benefit. I'd wager my next paycheck that most of them are not discovered by rigorous trial and error, but by accident.
- I'm still not quite buying this "spells exist" nonsense. And you didn't explain the strings.
- Well whatever. Can you think of anything that might possibly close that?

By that, she was referring to the vantablack, very interdimensional-portal-looking, gaping hole beneath our feet - where the bedroom rug had been just minutes ago, before I started turning my alarm clock to winter time while reciting a line from Paradise Lost.

She never did explain to me what she meant by the strings.

tiistai 5. heinäkuuta 2022

Some Partings

Foreword: I'm not going to even try to make you think this is something it isn't. This spring I've had some partings with very important friends - I initiated them, and they were accepted. It doesn't make it any less painful. These poems are about those partings. Some (much) creative license has been taken, and nothing should be taken literally. It's still just art, inspired.

Both of these are originally designed as lyrics, so they might not make sense without a melody. But if you're reading this, you probably read something from me before, and won't care. I'm happy that you're here. Thank you for reading.

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Like There is No Ending for You and Me

When we met it was the accident of being young
but we nearly instantaneously got along
Still waiting for our moments when we would be sung
as heroes of the minds and thoughts of every tongue

And during all the turmoil of the twenny-tens'
Our play was always passionate yet never tense
Bourgeois ideals acted through our thrifty lens
Allowing in occasion for some decadence

I wrote a bunch of poems about you and me
I thought that we would last at least eternity
We were something that by stars was always meant to be
- in eternity

But as time does it passes over all of us
always changing colors like an octopus
It's hanging in the background as a pileus
Though you fight, in every right, it is a total loss

Already having witnessed to the way it goes
didn't want us to be counted as just 'one of those'
I did the only thing I could so I would save us both
I broke us up and hid inside this wall of prose

We are broken now
and I let you go
And I got DRUNK

And
I wrote a bunch of poems about you and me
I thought that we would last at least eternity
Now there's a hole where my heart always used to be
There's no ending for this rhyme.

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I'm Not Crying

At the fortnight of my grief
I did a spell of my belief
I called out to my
ancestral tomb

I asked my kin to pray
That the emptiness not stay
I pleaded to return me
to the womb

I'm not crying for you
I'm not crying for me
I am crying for the past
and all that used to be

I'm not crying, not sad
I'm not angry still or mad
I just long for the feelings
I had

The ones that came before
Told me "don't you cry no more
The sea of life is
open and vast

The sharpness will abate
All the sadness and the hate
Will go out with the tide"
And the pain did subside

Why
am I
still crying?

I'm not crying for you
I'm not crying for me
I am crying for the past
and all that used to be

I'm not crying, not sad
I'm not angry still or mad
I am free, I am free
I am free